Carmen Salamanca: Is it also necessary in writing for someone to generate that wish for writing?
Miguel Oscar Menassa: "Someone" is a way of saying. The truth is that it is unknown what the first poet suffered (and I don't know if it will ever be known) to write the first verse of history without having written any verse before. Is this leading in the direction of the question you asked me? You said: does something exist which makes me wish to write poetry? Yes, the poets previous to me, to make it more understandable, the poems written before me.
CS: Writing has its own movement and you have to let yourself go with that movement to be able to write.
MOM: To let yourself go is a very ugly word, but letting yourself go is what must be done. Of course, you say to people let yourself go and they say "I wouldn't abandon myself" When I was small I learnt many things.
What word would I have used? To surrender. I, when I was very young, went to the racetrack and it was extraordinary, because an elderly man who was there, with whom I became quite friendly, told me one day, "did you see how the number four ran?" and I answered back "what number four? The only horse I have seen was number eight which was the one I had bet on". Then he told me: "Ah, then you don't enjoy, you only look at the horse you have bet on. You're a jerk, you come to the hippodrome, the best spectacle in the world, and the only horse you look at is the one you have bet on". It's genial. Well, from that day on I know how the number three, four, five, eight, run. But of course, that mister previously humanised, he humanised me. That is to say, it isn't necessary for your mother to do that.
CS: This means that all the factors of the phenomenon have to do with the phenomenon.
MOM: You say: "doctor Menassa, there is no ego and the phenomenon", referring to Carmen Salamanca. No, the phenomenon generally includes a lot of individuals who besides, one doesn't know. In the same way as the professor was explaining about work. You want to have a coffee and there are thirty six services so that you can have your coffee, but in reality you know the owner of the bar and the waiter who always serves you. Do you see that for you to have your coffee, the phenomenon and you, only know two people of the 36 who intervene in order that you can have your coffee? Everybody is like this, the poems are like this. Did you understand about the coffee? If not, I explain it to you all over again, because if the question about the coffee is understandable the, all the rest can be understood.
Audience: I don't.
MOM: Why not? In order for me to misuse the paint as I do, I and El Corte Inglés are not the only ones that are there, but it's me, El Corte Inglés and about another 36-38 services so that this tube of paint exists, another 30 services so that the canvases exist. Claire asked for them, Cruz paid for them, I painted them and El Corte Inglés' employee who sold them to me: 4 services, but there are 40 other services missing and they are the people who I don't know and who have worked for me. I don't see why you have so much problems in producing for people. Do you understand it? If you didn't understand I'll explain it again, but of course, each time worse.
CS: The ego is others.
MOM: From Rimbaud.
CS: As with colours, the combinations of words, of relationships, are infinite.
MOM: Yes, the combinations of words and, if you prefer, the combinations of love. Who could be able to say who can perform love well? There are the neurotics whom we discard because they don't make love, they make something else. But within the numbers of people who make love, which is the normal way of making love? Do you know any normal way of making love?
CS: No, I don't know what is normal, it must mean that there might be as many combinations as individuals.
MOM: And some more because for the individual, today is today and tomorrow is tomorrow. Did you understand?
MOM: The matter is that the imaginary is in someway what is private also for the individual. The individual can get up one morning and do something he had never done before, as if he were another subject, what happens is that what is imaginary is also unconscious for the own subject. Because, between she didn't allow me to put my hands between her legs and she allowed me to put my hand between her legs, there is a change in the imaginary for the individual, for the individual! Not that the individual didn't have the imaginary possibility of doing it that way, but that the poor man would never imagine that he could do it that way. Do you follow me or am I getting entangled?
CS: A writer can only form himself from others. It seems to me that before I was fighting the idea that writing is a gift, that it is a divine inspiration.
MOM: In these current times, in which almost no one writes or everybody writes poorly, the truth, it seems a divine inspiration, but it is a work. It is because of these current times that it seems a divine inspiration. As no one does things well, when someone does them a little well, they seem to be touched by God or by something similar.
isn't an emptiness of emptiness, but the sheer machine of producing what
the emptiness only names.
loved you and I knew it, I was your secret lover of nights of madness and
treason. When someone kissed my lips you wriggled like a damn snake within
my own entrails. Every new caress was my eternal damnation. With each new
caress your memory became more majestic, more delirious.
each time I make love, all the poets burst into tears.
is really kind for a father at a certain age.
-Yours, for example.
-To have to behave constantly as if I were the eldest is horrible and
tiresome, I get exhausted at it. Because, you won't deny it, doctor, that the
majority of times the destiny of a man is ruled by the most simple things.
-Yours, for example.
-Look, doctor, if someone were to ask me, I can say tranquilly, I have a
love. I have lived with the same woman for more than twenty years. And when she
ambitions another man I fuck her as if I'd have just known her.
-And with only one woman for twenty years?
-Look, doctor, I know that some jerk might ask me, then, I will answer
him, first, that that was my father.
-I'll tell him, not exactly like my father, but in his style. I have never
deceived anyone, I showed everything, I said everything. And I paid dearly for
-I mean, I have already had flings, I have already been young. All my sex
from now on will be invisible. No one will be able to prove it.
-To pay taxes isn't the worst thing I have to do. To grow old, that is the
hard part. To grow old, to know each day who I am. I've always thought about it
but it's only that I have to live it, a great adventure can only develop in a
serene, tranquil life.
-There is a still time in my life that I must get rid of.
-There is a being that only wants to be. There is a jerk in me, someone
who died before time. There is a truth which links me with the effectiveness of
shadows. See, doctor, that's what I want to be, I want to be it even under the
facet of not being, I want that way, even if it is impossible: a man, I love
women, reading, music, painting, gambling.
-I didn't know that you gambled.
-What, you'd have found it interesting that a miserable person would
-So what, won't you answer me?…
-Well, I also graduated as a doctor, but that doesn't matter much, I care
for work, I do, and afterwards to make love and, thinking it over, I like to
stay still, I like that more than anything in the world, to stay still, still…
was an hour and a half looking at her and deviating my gaze when other
women and men were trying to find mine.
when she pretended not to notice that I wasn't paying attention to her
movements, I made a joke to the waitress and she got angry forever, and
told me shouting in front of the other hundred guests:
I don't want to have anything to do with you any more. Never again.
she shouted I felt myself free, and being supported by her double
negation, I cornered her against the table and we fell together with
noises of glasses and cutlery flying in the air rocketed by our movements.
She, hot, upside-down, sucking the wine from the tablecloth, went on
-Now you have to fuck it… son-of-a-bitch.
she was moving like someone feeling great pleasure.
husband, an elderly man, said::
-Huh, huh, huh…
my wife, laughing a little:
-Bloody drunkard. But what
are you doing, nuts? Stop it, you're fucking her.
-No, my darling, we're dancing the "chipirri".
-And I said in a loud voice:
-CHI PI RRI:
I introduced my member and took it out and introduced it once more and CHI
PI RRI and took it out.
-Come, my dear, dance with us.
the husband also started to like it and shouting CHI PI RRI, he started to
touch my wife's ass, but a girlfriend of hers, who was waiting for a
moment of freedom, grasped the other woman's husband and sucked him until
drying him, my wife started to kiss my buttocks. And the waitress, who had
started the mess tried to calm us down offering a glass of wine.
word determines before his birth, not only the statute of the subject, but
also the arrival to the world of his biological being.
impute the patient the reality of a current relation with the object is
equivalent to projecting the subject into an alienated illusion which
doesn't make but reflect another alibi of the psychoanalyst.